LGBTQ Questions

I had to look up cupioromantic, but that honestly makes a lot of sense for me. I've been romantically involved with two people, one we dated for two weeks til I broke it off, I didn't know how to say no to him so I just ended up in that relationship. The other was what my friends lovingly call the "two year talking stage", he liked me, I was sure I liked him, but neither of us wanted to date at the time. Looking back, I am pretty I did have feelings for him, which makes me question whether I'm truly aro or if I'm demiromantic (we'd already been friends for a long time before either of us caught feelings). But I definitely want a relationship at some point, but it would have to be with someone I considered like one of my closest friends.

I have a degree in Theology an Philosophy. That does not mean that I have all the answers or know the truth, but I can offer you some knowledge. If you read the old and new testament there are a few references that christians might use to condemn gay people. You can read some of them in 25 Bible Verses about Homosexuality - What Does Scripture Say? (biblestudytools.com) Therefor, homosexuality must be condemned. And now the good news: society has evolved in the last two millenia. We've learned that most rules in the bible are now utterly nonsense: two anti gay verses are Leviticus 18:22 and Leviticus 20:13. But in between these verses is also Leviticus 19:19. So if someone throws anti-gay versus in your face, ask them if they ever wear cloths that are not 100% of the same fabric. If they do, they as much a sinner as a gay person. People who judge you for being gay, should read the gospel again, especially Mt 7, 3. An interestign read: 10 Reasons God Loves Gay Christians | TIME And if the bible does not help you: look at: Gay and Christian, No Contradiction | Brandan Robertson | TEDxLSSU (youtube.com)

I don't consider myself LGBT but still?? I love this one woman. (Though, she's a celeb so I guess this doesn't even count/it's not a (real) love, but whatever.) Like I find her attractive and sexy. Then there's another woman (a fictional character, so again - I think it then doesn't count).

But the thing is that I'm Christian, and that's what partly makes me not accepting myself and being angry that I have fallen for these women.

Also, about LGBT in general - because I believe in God, it's actually hard for me to support LGBT. I do support LGBT partly but yeah. I'm fighting all the time with myself and telling myself that being LGBT isn't really ok, even though I know that LGBT people are just like heteros, just a bit different, if you can even say like that.

I'm just scared that God doesn't like these things and because of supporting LGBT and being LGBT kinda yes but kinda no myself, I'll go to hell. 😭

No I have the same fears all the time! I can't let myself think about it too much bc I'll have a panic attack, but I've constantly been told that gay people go to hell and stuff by Christian people. I'm Christian, and I don't blame God for the people who say they're godly and then act that way, but it's still hard to not believe what they say. I don't know if I'm gay, but I've definitely felt some attraction towards a particular girl, but it never grew to feelings. I just don't know what to do. I've told myself I'll just find a good guy and never think about it again, but I've been told a lot that I'll never be able to find someone to love me bc of my mental illness and other issues, and I'm scared I'm gonna be alone and stuck with these thoughts forever. Help 😭